It went like this.

My mom talked to me about things last night. She said a lot of things, but mostly what I said was:
"You don't understand."
And then I said "I love him."
and she goes...
"Oh. I didn't know."
and she looked sad. she looked hurt. she said, "you're in love with him?"
I said "It doesn't matter what love you're talking about. Just all kinds of love. I'm not just in love with him, it's not just like that. I just love him."
I don't know if she knew what to say to that.
And now it looks like I have a B in my class.
and I feel like a failure.
and there's also something nagging in me that says "You aren't as smart as him."
and it's not fair. it's just not fair.