Sick and tired.

Sick sick sick sick sick. Tired tired tired tired tired tired. I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. And newsflash: I never really liked that boy Nick anyway. Thing is, if you ask any of my friends they’ll tell you that I’m always liking guys. But the truth is, if you ask me, that I don’t really like them, I’m just looking for someone to like. Because I don’t have anyone that I really like that way. See, it’s hard to go to school and see all the happy couples and everything when you’re alone, but it’s not just that. It’s the fact that I don’t even know anybody who I even would want to go out with. At least if I had someone I really liked, I wouldn’t feel so alone. But I don’t, really. Here’s a quick list of people I’ve liked. I bet that anybody who knows me is probably squirming in their seats right now, more than ready to laugh at what I’m about to say, but it’s not even that laughable. I don’t have this huge list of people I really liked, just a list of people I attempted to like to give myself some kind of distraction from other things.

Okay, let’s start with Kindergarten. Just because. I had this fake little boyfriend thing going on in kindergarten. Apparently it was adorable, but I don’t know.

Then in third grade I had a stupid little crush on this boy.

Fourth grade I had a crush on someone else. Little kid crush, though. I didn’t really like him the way you need to to consider it an honest-to-God crush.

Fifth grade I liked that boy again, but it wasn’t even like, real.

Sixth grade I had a couple stupid nonexistent crushes. I was basically just going from boy to boy; I was a little girl! Then I started liking this one boy at the end of the year who I liked for a while. Ehh, sixth grade wasn’t too good. But it was the year I started to change for the better.

Seventh-Summer before ninth grade: This kid named Brian. Everyone knows it, why even bother giving him a fake name? Yeah, I don’t know why. I liked him from the end of sixth grade to right before ninth, it was weird.

Ninth Grade – Nobody.

Summer – Met this kid and thought I liked him for about two weeks, then realized I didn’t.

Tenth Grade – “Liked” different guys. Not really, though.

Currently – Nobody.

I really just wrote this list for me, because I’ve been agitated about this for a while now. It’s really annoying. And right now I’m sick and can’t go home. This days sucks.