Wow, a lot has happened lately.

My life has been pretty crazy lately, for a high school girl's anyway. It seems like life is getting more and more ridiculous every day. I don't quite know how to describe things as they're going right now. I think people read this blog, so I can't say all that much anymore. But I will say this; In the past month, I have truly realized that everyone around us, everyone, has a problem and has something going on in their life that they'd rather not be happening. Depression, addiction, unrequited love, a broken home, a family torn apart by betrayal and secrets.
I wonder if it's possible to fall in love with the pieces of someone that you can see behind their depression. Not fall in love romantically, but fall in love as a friend, simply love those parts of them. Well, love all parts of them hiding behind the depression. It's hard to describe, hard to understand. I guess you'd have to be in the situation. I don't suggest you go getting yourself into this situation anytime soon. Although maybe it'd be a little easier for other people.
I am an over-empathetic person. There's a term for someone like me: an empath. Someone who feels others emotions and takes on other people's pain. Like, so, I'll sit there and cry for other people. I'll cry for other people's problems. And it's usually other people's; I don't cry for my own problems nearly as much. See, being an "empath" is both a blessing and a curse. I can help other people, and can be there for them as a true friend, and I'll do A LOT to help people out. But it's a curse because sometimes I'll neglect my own needs, and won't remember to worry about myself at the end of the day.
I'm trying to write a song for someone and play it on the guitar. It's going to be hard, but I'm going to do it. For them, and for me. They've kind of inspired me to really actually learn the guitar, you know? I mean, they're going through so much, and they just keep trudging on. If they can do that, then I can write and compose a song on the guitar.
I wish that people you care about knew that you really did care, you know? I wish this person knew that I truly want what's best for them, and that I think they're a beautiful person. I wish I wish I wish I wish I wish. Well, I'm going to do all that I can do for this person. Because I want to see them happy and smiling and laughing and I want them to let themselves be loved so bad. I want them to be happy SO SO bad. They deserve happiness. They really, truly do.