Closure: Goodbye, Hello.

My closure will end with two words.

Then I will go and flee and be free like a butterfly :D. And he will remain a bee who will die out after stinging everyone he can and letting his venom out.

I'm not afraid of his reaction, or anything, because I'm going to walk away before he can say a damn thing. There is nothing he can say. Nothing he can do. Sorry is nothing. Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.

GOODBYE.

This is also hello.

HELLO, HELLO, HELLO.

Hello summer, hello experiences, hello to my journey of finding a true sense of self that I can come to love.

Hello new people and new interests and new crushes and new memories. New memories to be made... replacing the old. Replacing the old memories with the good ones, because I deserve that. God knows I deserve that.

I deserve respect! I deserve care, and love! Why put up with way way way way WAY less than I deserve? I refuse to. I simply refuse to. I don't need to. I don't need people in my life who only rip me apart. The pain has not disappeared, but it no longer hinders me. It acts as a catalyst that strengthens me. I feel the pain and I reach above it and move forward. It's my 17th birthday on Tuesday. Last year I spent part of my birthday feeling terrible sadness because some pathetic asshole had me and used me and ripped my heart to shreds.

THIS YEAR IS DIFFERENT.

I'm not cutting myself, I'm cutting the ties.

I'm not hurting myself, I'm helping others as WELL as myself.

I'm not going to turn numb, I will do everything I can not to.

I am not going to lock my heart up, I will continue to wear it on my sleeve because that is who I am.

I am a girl who wears her heart on her sleeve and who cares deeply for people and he didn't ruin that!

For all he did, he did NOT ruin the girl who wears her heart on her sleeve! He did NOT take away my care for others! He did not make me hard and numb! He did not make me give up or close myself or lock my heart away! He did not turn me into him! HE DID NOT SUCCEED. HE DID NOT WIN. I WON. I WON BECAUSE I AM STILL STANDING AND I AM NOT RUINED. I am NOT ruined. HE DID NOT RUIN ME. I AM NOT RUINED.

Checkmate.

You lose. You lose you lose you lose!

THIS GAME IS OVER.

ONCE AND FOR ALL.