THIS IS NOT FAIR.
She's leaving, he's staying. So many other people are leaving too... this is absolutely not fair at all.
Everybody is LEAVING. Shit. It's getting ridiculous.
One friend to Kentucky... another to Virginia... another 2 hours north... another to New Mexico for the summer, and possibly forever...
This honestly is not fair.
That d-bag didn't come last night and then suddenly I heard his voice because he was there to take his sister away for possibly forever and I hid.
WHAT THE FUDGESTICK
Looking back, eww. I hid?! I'm not that weak anymore. I mean, really. It's time to confront him and to realize that he's pathetic, weak, and a much smaller person than I am. Really.
He took his sister with him and I went outside and sobbed my freaking eyes out of my FACE.
It had nothing to do with him, it barely does anymore.
I just can't believe she's leaving. Actually leaving.
I was so indifferent to it when I first heard it and was just angry, but last night it suddenly hit me when the seniors were all talking. It suddenly hit that everyone was actually leaving and not just talking about it and I couldn't stand it and just went nuts.
If I never see her again. Well.
I can't even imagine. So much happened there and to never see her again would be ridiculous.
To see him a lot will just be an insult from the universe.
Where's the kid living, anyway?
No, I don't want those answers.
So I went and hung out with that kid who I might have been interested in and I have to say...
no. It's not going to work out and I'm just forever alone.
How absolutely awful is it that I actually believe I'm going to be alone and left behind forever?
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