defeated.

I'm defeated.
People can tell.
Even teachers.
They all say I'm not myself.
I walk around with no desire to do anything.
My heart aches as though an unbearably heavy weight has been put on it.
And there's nowhere I can go. Nothing I can do. To make the pain go away.
I have no options here. I am sitting in hurt and people tell me that somehow I'm going to have to sit here until it stops hurting.
That somehow, someday, it won't hurt me anymore, and I'll be happy again. Really happy, again.
How?
How can I even wait when this pain is so harsh and cruel that I have become zombielike, randomly bursting into tears throughout the day?