What can I do? Honestly, I have no idea anymore. I feel like I looked at his emptiness and poured myself into him, and that I've lost so much energy and just I feel pale and I feel more tired and l feel dragged down. I wish I never met him, But then I never would have met his sister. It wasn't worth it trying to help him, but wasn't it? and didn't I help the rest of the family? Those are the thought that I'm dealing with, but I'm so tired and so weak and I'm just breaking under this pressure.
And I keep telling myself, "Don't think! Don't freaking think! Because when you think you realize just how screwed up everthing really is. You realize you don't know how you got where you are, You don't know where you're going, And you don't know what to do anymore!!!!!!"
And I can't even cry to him. Can't even say anything to him because he doesn't understand and there's just NOTHING I CAN DO!
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