Seeing pictures of girls with their flowers and the smiles on their faces at prom makes me feel like I have a sign on my forehead that says "Forever Alone".

I want that giddy excitement. There just isn't anyone for me.

I'm quite attracted to my teacher, though. But he's married with children, so we can cross that one out.

I don't know why I'm attracted to older men, but I am. I don't mean like people in their 70s. I mean 20s and 30s. I'm hardly attracted to everyone that age, only a few people, but I realize now that I spend my time thinking about celebrities who are quite older, like Jake Gyllenhal. Ahhmygosh.

And my teacher is just. Magic.

Everybody my age is just a baby. I would rather date a 19 year old than a 17 year old. And I'd rather date a 21 year old than a 16 year old! This could get me into trouble, I know, but I can't help that I'm attracted to older guys. Younger guys fail at life.