Anger. Seeing Red.

I am so angry. I am angry at the people around me who have hurt me.

I am angry at him.

That jackass, that bastard, that asshole.

I want to shake him and scream at him. I WANT TO HURT HIM.

I want to hurt him because he doesn't deserve to just get away with this!

Nobody should just get away with this.

I want to spit at him and I want to look him in the face and give a big "Fuck you."

If language offends you, stop reading right now, because I'm done censoring.

Fuck you for making me hate myself.

Fuck you for telling you could use me and then doing it. For saying I was crazy and insane and making me believe it and belittling me and showing me the knives you cut yourself with and then making FUN of me for being worried.

And FUCK YOU for hurting me when all I did was love you, all I EVER DID to you was love you!

You sicken me. YOU SICKEN ME. I don't want to be around you because it makes me physically ill. And you don't give a shit about what happened to me or if I die or if I live and you'd probably laugh at me now, you'd see me and you'd LAUGH AT ME NOW.

Because you are that fucked up and angry and awful and rude.

Goddamn I pity you.

For losing the good side of you and letting yourself become apathetic.

I want to spit it out at you right in front of you and PUSH YOU. I WANT TO PUSH YOU INTO MUD AND KICK YOU IN THE BALLS AND THEN KICK YOU IN THE BALLS AGAIN WHILE YOU'RE DOWN.

I just want to say it to you, loud and clear, and get SOME of my anger out: "Fuck you. FUCK YOU."